Though some may be great, and some may be small, we fail to realize what or who they are until they're right in front of us, staring us in the face.
I'm a strong believer in fate, and words like "meant to be," and "everything happens for a reason," but the same question always arises, "How do you know?" It can be a haunting thing that we think about constantly if we allow ourselves to worry and think about it too much. And even though we may never know the answer, we can't help but wonder. That connection we thought was once gone forever comes back to us and we are completeley in awe.
My heart actually jumped, my stomach filled with butterflies, and I couldn't believe who was right in front of me. I was standing in the entry way of a random house party I got invited to. There were people all around me, some I recognized, and some I had never seen before in my life. With a beer in one hand, and my purse in the other I took a second to absorb everything in and observe my surroundings. I turned to my right looking into the kitchen and I saw someone that looked familiar. For a second I thought I was going crazy.....literally. Half drunk and half baked out of my mind and I thought I was seeing things. I took at least 3 double takes before I slowly started creeping forward to him. I had this look on my face that had confusion and "what the fuck" written all over it, not sure if I was about to make a fool of myself when I was finally standing next to him looking him dead in the eyes.
It was Thom. It was really him. He was supposed to be in Georgia going to school, and living the dream, but instead he was here right in front of me. I got this crazy feeling in my stomache, something I hadn't felt in a long time. My first response was of course, "What the fuck are you doing here?!" He said he was back home for break and that he just got in town an hour before. My mind was going crazy. For the first time in a long time I was completely in shock. My spirits were unbelievably lifted after that. Here he was, this guy I'd known since I was 15, one of my oldest friends at that, and I was so happy to see him. Even though there was a lot of people around we still got a chance to talk and smoke a bowl and catch up. He told me that he used to live here and that Sean now lives in his room upstairs in the attic. It all came together so quickly in my mind.
I woke up the next morning at 9:30 wide awake and couldn't go back to sleep. I was hungover and in a daze the whole day, but I was motivated to seize the day. I went home and cleaned my room, my car, the basement, and did a lot of laundry. I took the time to organize my cd's picking up Common's "Be" and puting the cd back in the case. When I opened it all I saw was "Cottage Grove." It was a street sign for the same street I was on the night before. Coincidence?
Afterwards I went to work out with my sister and when I got home I wasn't even tired. I took a shower and when I got done getting dressed I got a phone call.
Its crazy how fast time flys by and when you look back on it, it feels like yesterday....I went to Aaron, Aaron, and Nate's show and Thom came with me. I had the best time ever and we didn't even really do anything the whole night. They didn't play till last (of course) and we got there early looking around at the art on the walls and ending up sitting on a couch talking while I was watching him draw various people we saw, using my notebook I carry around with me. He started to write something and when I asked what he said, "I'm writing to you, don't look!"
I felt as though time was on pause, and it didn't matter what did or didn't happen next.
They put on a good show with the little space and the little time they had to practice. Upon leaving I dropped Thom off at Sean's where him and some people went to the casino. I left feeling content and ended up at Collin's house where he was throwing a party. I ended up seeing a few people from highschool I hadn't seen in damn near 3yrs. I walked down the basement filled with writings all over the walls and I saw Ali's name in her handwriting. I was faced with yet another coincidental thing I randomly saw right in front of me.
I waited till I got home before I read what Thom wrote me. It was exactly what I needed and brought a smile to my face.
It's crazy how things pan out. Some people you never see again whereas others keep finding their way back into your life. I love it. Connections...sometimes right in front of your eyes, just gotta open them a little wider once in awhile and look the fuck around.paz y amor
