Bemis Creativity Festival

I thought the storm was gunna fuck up the whole night. I wanted to get there at 7 to see the modern dance part and see the open studios but Brandon got stuck in the storm. It was ok though, we still made it just in time for loom.
That was probably one of the best ones I've gone to. The Bemis Center is the shit. I can't believe we got in free, and wasn't carded. I went and got painted not even 10mins after we were there. Coolest shit ever, by the way. Now I really wanna get a tat, just gotta think about it some more. The whole night was awesome. I knew if I took Brandon I'd have a lot of fun so I'm glad I did. I thought Keith and Nate and everyone else there would ruin it for me but after awhile, I didn't care. I was dancin my ass off havin a good time, I wasn't gunna let that phase me. When we walked out some guy told us "This is a beautiful thing right here, you two are just beautiful together" That made me smile. I'm pretty sure we were the only interracial couple there so that made me ecstatic. You don't have a lot of people come up and tell you that.
Then we all went back to Brandons and had a bonfire outside. He didn't have power so we had to improvise.
Got some crazy messages and calls the next day from my mom. That was lame...
Overall...A++ night.

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Movin on, and movin forward.

Fuck You Lucy-Atmosphere

She say that she still wants a friendship
She can't live her life without me as a friend
I can't figure out why I give a damn to what she wants
I don't understand the now before the then
Most of this garbage I write that these people seem to like
Is about you and how I let you infect my life
And if they got to know you, I doubt that they would see it
They'd wonder what I showed you how you could leave it
A friend in Chicago said that I should stay persistent
If I stay around I'm bound to break resistance
Fuck you Lucy for defining my existence
Fuck you and your differences
Ever since I was a young lad with a part-time dad I
t was hard to find happiness inside of what I had I studied my mother,
I digested her pain
And vowed no women on my path would have to walk the same
Travel like sound across the fate ladder
I travel with spoon to mix this cake batter
And I travel with feels so I can deal with touch I
t's like that, thank you very much,
fuck you very much!
And everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love (Yes, yes it is)
And everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Fuck to what happened, I got stuck
They can peel pieces of me off the grill of her truck
Used to walk with luck, used to hold her hand
Fell behind the played roll of a slower man
I want to stand on top of this mountain and yell
I want to wake up and break up this lake of hell
I feel like a bitch for letting the sheet twist me up
The last starfighter was wounded, time to give it up
On a pick it up mission, kept it bitter
Gettin' in a million memories just to forget her
The difficulty in keepin' emotions controlled Cookies for the road, took me by the soul
Hunger for the drama, hunger for the nurture
Gonna take it further, the hurt feels like murder I
nterpret the eyes, read the lines on her face
The sunshine is fake, how much time did I waste?
Fuck you Lucy for leaving me
Fuck you Lucy for not needing me I wanna say fuck you because I still love you
No, I'm not okay, and I don't know what to do
And everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
And everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Do I sound mad?
Well I guess I'm a little pissed
Every action has a point, five points make a fist
You close em', you swing em', it's hurts when it hits
And the truth can be a bitch, but if the boot fits I got an idea:
You should get a tattoo that says warning
That's all, just a warning, so the potential victim can take a left
And save breath, and avoid you, sober and upset in the morning I wanna scream,
"Fuck you Lucy!"
But the problem is I love you Lucy
So instead I'ma finish my drink and have another
While you think about how you used to be my lover
And everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
And everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love
Everyone in his life would mistake it as love

Movie Night

Rented this movie tonight. It was interesting...kinda crazy...but not as good as I thought it'd be. If you're into drug movies, check it out.

and also this one...



This one was pretty similar to movies like Crash or Babylon, only a shittier version I think. I'd prolly watch it again, but wasn't nuts about it.


Been watchin a lot of movies lately. I enjoy it mucho.

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Pictorials

I FINALLY got a chance to develop some of my black & whites from Chicago. It took me a little over 2 and half hours to do, but I'm glad I got some up. So go check that shit out on my facebook or my myspace.......www.myspace.com/kramedame
I was really happy with the way these turned out. I still have a ton more and still need to get the color ones developed. Wooop.

The last 3 nights, I haven't made shit at the bar. I was all stoked to work by myself tonight and the tornadoes fucked it all up! I was really gettin scared for a little bit. They were literally down the street from my house. FUUUCKK!

I have an interview for Omaha Night Life for a photography position on Friday. We'll see how that goes. I don't really need a 3rd job...so it all depends on how much they pay.

I don't really have anything else to say....=/

Change

It's something constant, something that happens all the time. It's growth, hurt, despair, grief, independence, realization, faith, and a learning experience for the soul and mind. Sometimes it's a good thing, and sometimes it's a bad thing. Sometimes it's people you know, their lifestlyes, habits, music, and thoughts, or sometimes its your personally. People grow and learn new things. People move on, get new friends, and nothing is ever the same.

For me, change has always be a constant thing in my life. I rarely ever keep the same friends, or stick around the same crowd of people. I don't know why this is, but it is something that I have always done. I hang out with a group of people for a certain amount of time. It could be weeks, months, or years, but sooner or later we all drift apart into our own seperate friends, our own seperate lives.

I've always had very different groups and types of friends. When I try to bring them all together, it never works out. They don't always like eachother, or just plain don't get along. I can still remember my 17th birthday party the year after transfering to Millard North. I threw a typical party in my basement, and invited everyone I knew from Skutt and from Millard North. They were all separated. Skutt on the left, Millard North on the right. I didn't know what to do. I had to keep going back and forth through crowds. Rosie and Shanae helped me do this, and tried to get everyone to talk to everyone, but it didn't work out. I don't know why this has always been the case, or what that says about my personality, but it's really frustrating sometimes.
I've been realizing that my life is yet to make another turn before I go to Chicago. This summer won't even be 50% of what last summer was. I'm going to be busy as fuck, working, goin to class, and takin a ballet & pointe class. Right now I usually only get one day off a week. I probably won't see half the people I hung out with everyday last summer. It's not just that I'm busy, but it doesn't even feel the same anymore. They don't even try to hang out with me or invite me to do anything. A part of me saw this coming but didn;t want to believe it I guess. But then again I think, maybe its me. Maybe I've changed and grown up faster than they have.

I got to hang out with Kurt, Jeremy, Matt, Andrew A, and some kids I didn't know for the first time the other night since summer has started. It didn't even feel the same anymore. I barely said anything the whole night, just listening to them talk about all the things they're going to do this summer that doesn't include me in any way. I won't get to swim in the lake, watch fireworks on the 4th, make fun of dumb ass hos, go to Rock the bells, smoke with everyone, go to the same parties, be at Keith's everyday, or just sit there and listen to all of them jam. It makes me sad, but eventually I knew it would happen.

I was so worried and trippin about Keith coming back here, and for what? I miss him like crazy, but what does it matter anymore? I have no control over anything that happens, and if I'm not going to be around him or his friends, what am I trippin about? I know I'll see them ocassionally, but it just won't be the same. I'm done trying to hang out with them. Half the time they blow me off anyway, and if they never call to hang out in the first place, why try? I don't know why I was freakin out about all of this. It's not like anythings going to change when Keith moves back here.

I'm slowly going through a realization that there is going to be nothing left here for me in Omaha. (with the exception of my family and Shanae). I rarely hang out with anyone here as it is, so maybe it'll help me let go easier next year. I dont know what's in store for the future, but I can't sit here and think about every possible outcome and stress myself out over it.

Things are going to change no matter what.

Millard Hit by a Tornado

Millard residents are cleaning up today after an early morning storm blew through the area, tearing off roofs and parts of houses, blowing out windows and pushing trees to the ground.

Heavy winds from a possible tornado near 132nd and Q streets knocked over this tree.Between 20 and 30 homes and businesses in the area were severely damaged in the storm, and structures with some damage likely will number more than 100, Assistant Omaha Fire Chief Joe Gibilisco said. The worst of the damage looked to be on Birchwood Avenue and Jefferson, Y and Z Streets between 136th and 138th Streets, Gibilisco said."It's a miracle, when you look at it, that no one was (seriously) hurt," he said.Nebraska Gov. Dave Heineman toured the area this morning. He said after 11 a.m. that this is the worst damage he has seen in the series of storms that began on May 22 in terms of the amount of damage to homes and property.
Shelters
• The American Red Cross is opening a shelter in the gymnasium at Millard's Central Middle School, 12801 L St., for anyone displaced by the storm. That shelter will remain open throughout the day and into the evening, said Deborah Neary, deputy director of the Heartland Chapter of the American Red Cross. Anyone affected by the storm is encouraged to use the shelter. • The Red Cross hospitality center at Millard Bible Church, 14345 Y St., will remain open until noon. • Red Cross workers also will drive through the affected area with food for survivors of the storm and emergency workers. Mental health workers also are being sent to help victims of the storms. Lt. Russ Zeeb of the Sarpy County Sheriff's Office said that it appears that after the storm blew through Douglas County, it moved south across the Sarpy County line, hitting near 147th Street and Chandler Road, then up Nebraska Highway 50 to Josephine Street.The Omaha Police Department has set up a perimeter around the most severely damaged area. Officers were blocking access from Harrison Street to Discovery Drive, from 132nd to 138th Streets."We're limiting access because there are downed power lines and trees," said Officer Michael Pecha, an Omaha police spokesman.Residents and people escorted by residents are being allowed in. Pecha said the closure also will help speed the cleanup effort.Omaha Mayor Mike Fahey, who arrived in the neighborhood about 7:30 a.m., spent an hour surveying the damage. He said two people were taken to the hospital: a child who sustained a cut to the arm and an adult with chest pains that may or may not be attributable to the storm."It's a miracle no one got killed," Fahey said.About 5,000 homes and businesses were without power at 11 a.m., said OPPD spokesman Mike Jones.Most of those homes were in the Millard area , but about 1,000 homes near 108th and Lake Streets were without power. Crews with the Omaha Public Power District had repaired all but one power circuit. At the height of the outage, 46 circuits were out and 13,800 OPPD customers were without power.A shelter has been set up for displaced people at Millard Bible Church, 14345 Y St. Damage reports should be called in to Douglas County Emergency Management workers at these phone numbers: 504-6638 or 504-6641.Denise Horton said about 2:24 a.m., she heard the storm, opened a window and shingles started flying toward her. She said she closed the window, took her daughter downstairs and heard sirens go off four minutes later.Horton said she moved to Omaha several years ago from Southern California."I'll take an earthquake over this," she said.

Sunday's fierce storms hit Carquest Auto Parts, 13510 Q St., hard.Horton had some damage to her roof, but other houses in the neighborthood were more extensively damaged.Barbara Mayes, a National Weather Service meteorologist in Valley, Neb., said a weather service crew was conducting a damage assessment this morning to determine whether the damage was caused by a tornado.An employee at the Wal-Mart at 132nd and L Streets said she was blown off her feet as the storm hit around 2:30 a.m.Carrie Jenkins, who works as a stocker at the store, said she had just come in the front doors, which face south, as a strong gust hit the front of the building.Jenkins said she heard what sounded like a train, so she turned around and went toward the door to look. "How stupid am I?" she said, laughing. The door opened and she was blown back into the store "past the cash registers.""It was like somebody had pushed me really, really hard," she said. She was not injured.Workers said a small section of the store's roof collapsed, apparently when an air conditioner shifted, dropping roofing down into the store and hitting one customer, who reportedly was not injured.After part of the roof collapsed, employees said they started smelling natural gas. Managers quickly moved the 30 or so employees and six customers to rooms in the back of the building. When the fire department arrived, all inside were told to leave the building."So, we're out in the rain thinking there's a tornado out there,"Jenkins said, "and we're trying to decide which is worse - blowing up or getting hit by a tornado."Heavy rains descended on Omaha as the storm hit, but Mayes said the rotating portion of the thunderstorm had moved out of the area by about 3:30 a.m.Allen Krabbenhoft, 5071 S. 134th St., said his garage was blown away and eight storm windows were knocked out of the front porch of his home. He said he was awakened about 2:30 a.m."All I heard was a great big gust of wind and an explosion," Krabbenhoft said. He attributed the explosion to "the garage getting ripped off the foundation."Considerable tree damage was done southeast of 72nd and Dodge Streets and power was out there as well. In addition, a large tree was blocking Pacific Street just east of 52nd Street.Damage also was reported to a Carquest Auto Parts at 135th and Q Streets and to cars at Driver's Edge Auto Sales at 136th and Q Streets.Deputy Nathan Kovarik of the Douglas County Sheriff's Office said some utility poles were down in the vicinity of 182nd and Q Streets, and 192nd and Adams Streets.Joyce Berg, owner of Millard Car Wash at 5226 S. 132nd St., said the roof came off her business and a wall buckled. A gas line was broken in the process, she said.In central Omaha, the storm knocked down limbs and some trees and power lines. Large limbs were down in Elmwood Park. Fallen trees blocked or partially blocked streets near 52nd and Pacific Streets, 68th Avenue and Farnam Street and Westgate Road near West Center Road.Sara Derosa, who lives near 52nd and Pacific Streets, said she heard tornado sirens at about 2:30 a.m. Sunday and at first did not hear any winds. Soon after, heavy winds hit.About 2,150 homes and businesses served by MidAmerican Energy throughout Iowa were without power this morning. The majority of those outages were storm-related, said MidAmerican spokesman Mark Reinders. By 11 a.m., power had been restored to all but a few customers.

This shit is crazy. I got off work around 1:45, smoked a bowl with Dawn and went home and took a shower. When I got out, my whole family was sittin in the basement. Kinda freaked me out a lil bit..I didn't really think anything of it and got some food, and by that time the sirens were done going off and my family was goin back upstairs. I started watchin the news and got paranoid as fuck. We got a huge thunder storm right after that so I was freakin. I wonder if we'll all get tornados, or just one big one that will completely distroy our city. I have a feeling it might happen this year. How scary is that? The natural disasters lately are intensifying, it's scary as fuck. I don't wanna die in a fuckin tornado!

Just got off work...

Tonight I went in to the Gap at 4 and clocked out at 1:23. The President and Vice President are coming in to see the store tomorrow (thank god I don't work) and everything had to be perfect, plus we had mannequins to dress. It was crazy, but it definitely made the time go by faster. At the end of the night, my general manager told me that she set up an interview for me at Village Pointe for a manager position on Thursday. I was really stoked to hear that, because I hadn't heard anything about it and was about to just go in and talk to the general manager there. Woohoo!! I'm excited, but really nervous at the same time. I've never interviewed for a management position before, and I know there's things I need to work on, and I have no idea what to do or say. I would most likely have to transfer over there as an employee first, and then be trained for that position. It would be a really good learning experience and would help me out a lot in Chicago, but I would be sad to leave Oakview. I seriously love every single person there. They all make work fun and enjoyable making me want to come there. I guess this interview will determine that.
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