Bring the Noise

FINALLY got these hooked up and installed yesterday. I got them on Sunday from my friend Aaron that I work with. These speakers are originally $650 EACH, (for the front and back). Aaron sold both of them to me for $500. I talked to my dad and told him I'd pay half. The first thing he asked me was "Why do you need new speakers?" I told him my speakers have been blown for almost 2yrs now. He said, "What do you mean? How?" I told him Nate blew all of them, and his response (I shit you not) was "Well why don't you make Nate pay for them then." HAH. Anyway, Aaron said he'd install them for me for free, and my dad wanted him to install them first and then he'd pay. Of course knowing my dad he had to be a dick about it and didn't trust Aaron or me and thought the speakers wouldn't work, thought we could get them cheaper at best buy, and didn't even want to pay him till everything was installed. (Dumb....ass) THAT really pissed me off. So I went over to Aaron's and he told me he couldn't install them. I was really bummed out. I showed Kurt and he said he could probably do it. The next day he started taking apart my speakers, nd realized he couldn't do them either. Brandon's brother works at Metro Audio Dynamics and he said I could get them installed professionally for $50. I decided to do that and took them there yesterday. They told me I needed an amp otherwise my whole system was gunna sound like shit and there was no point for them to even put them in. The amp itself was only $200, with all of the wiring and labor work I was up to $600 by the time they got done adding everything up. WHAT THE FUUUUCKKK!!! So I was waiting around allllllll day for my car to be done, couldn't really go anywhere, and got my car back around 9pm. It took them damn near 10hrs to install them.....BUT OMG do they sound FUCKIN AMAZING!! I literally sat in my car for 2hrs playing all of my cds. It was like hearing them for the first time, and I was in heaven. It sounds SOOO GOOD! You guys have no idea how long I have needed this. My dad ended up paying for it because my card didnt work. I had all of the money transfered and everything and told him I'd pay him back. He said, "Don't worry about it, you need your money for school. I got it." Fuck that. I hate it when men pull that card. I hate asking my dad for shit. It's not that I feel bad about it, I just know he has a lot of money that he keeps strictly for himself for god knows what reason, and when he can't even give my mom some money.....I don't even want it.







Painting with light....

This is what we talked about today in class, and what we're going to be doing for the next couple weeks. Just kinda brainstormed some ideas and checked out a couple websites. This is the coolest thing ever. I don't know why I didn't think of it before...but be prepared for some coming soon.

Check out this page for more pictures. http://www.darkroastedblend.com/2008/01/painting-with-light.html They also got a lot of really crazy cool shit on this website if you've never heard of it, so check it ouuuuuut.

Thas all I gotzzzz.

Check out my myspace and facebook for some new pics I uploaded....k thanksss!

Infrared

Pretty freakin sick eh?

We ordered some ifrared film and they came in on Monday. I'm pretty excited to go shoot. I decided to use my fish eye instead of the holga this kid was letting me borrow till I get mine in the mail. (which came yesterday but they sent me a fuckin book instead, needless to say I was pretty upset) The first roll I shot with the holga didn't turn out so well. I had some overlapping issues, so I don't wanna waste this film if that happens again. It was freakin $10 a roll!
We got a chance to learn a little bit about it today and also check out this guy....http://www.flickr.com/photos/eye_of_wally/ He does a lot of infrared with using a holga and other various plastic cameras, and some pinhole work, and got some pretty amazing stuff. (His actual profile picture is hilarious, check him out)
I'm pretty stoked for this. If it rains and or is cloudy this weekend I'm gunna be pissed.

The Dark Knight

Went to see this movie tonight at 11:15, AMC, with Aaron, Arnie, Nate, Sam, and 2 other people I didn't know. By far, the best movie I've seen in a long time. Batman Begins was on tv last night, and it just pumped me up to see this movie.
I give Heath Ledger mad props. He did such and amazing job in playing that role I was blown away. I'm really sad that he isn't here to see how amazing he was, or how he would've been in the other movies. I don't know what Nolan's going to do, no ones going to be able to top Heath. I wouldn't be surprised if he was nominated and or won an Oscar for Best Actor.
Of course there is the obvious that Christian Bale was the shit. (that goes without saying)

I highly recommend everyone to go see this movie. You MIGHT just shit your pants.

Speed Bump

I feel like everythings goin by so fast and I just keep goin with the flow. I've been tellin myself that I should just have fun, its the summer, and this is my break. I keep bottling everything up all at once and trying to take on other peoples problems instead of looking at my own.
I've reached a point where my mind has slowed down. I'm realizing things I didn't want to see before, and I feel like I'm back where I started.
Ground zero....
No motivation....
Back to nothing...
I doubt myself, I doubt my ambition, and I don't want to think like that anymore. I don't want to be afraid.
Fear.
Its such an annoying thing. I hate it. I fear that I won't be good enough, that I won't make it on my own, and that I won't do everything I want to because of it.

I sat down and took a look at the big picture today:
I'm not over anything.
I'm not ready for anyone.
I'm negative as fuck.
My attitude sucks.
I can't run or hide from my problems.
I don't have anyone to talk to.
Everything is choking me, I feel like I can't breathe.

All around...emotionally, I'm not ok with anything.

Flashy Words.

Sleepin in on a Sunday

This never happens. Usually I don't get to sleep in until Mondays, so today's kinda gloomy and humid, but I already know it's gunna be a good day. Finally get some alone time, and finally get the chance to sit down and get all my ideas together and get rollin. I haven't had the time to start on any of the projects I want to accomplish this summer. Now that I'm only working Sat nights at the bar that should leave Mon nights, Tuesday ALL DAY (really stoked about that) and Weds nights open.
My minds all over the place. I just need time to sit down and focus on what's important, and say fuck everything else. I can't wait to leave this place.

Most of the ideas I've been brainstorming are:
1. Self Portraits-
My teacher told me some positive things about the ones I already have and that I should really try to get into that more. I agree with him. For as long as I can remember, I've been taking pictures of myself more than anyone or anything. I don't really have a legit reason why, I just enjoy it. So I've come up with some different things I could do and portray that I think will be really awesome once they're done.
2. Polaroids-
We've done a couple since class started, and it was the coolest thing ever. I can literally peel off the emulsion and stick it on metal, bottles, paper, coffee cups, towels, almost anything. So I've been brainstorming some picture ideas for coffee cups, bottles, and glass cups. The best part is, I can do all of it at school. All I have to do is rent out a polaroid camera, buy some film, and BAM! I've been thinking about just investing in one, but I gotta wait till I get more money.
3. Pinholes-
This is probably the easiest out of all of them. All I need is a tin can, some light tight tape, positive paper, and a drill, and I got my pinhole camera. It takes longer to expose these but you can get some really interesting results.

I don't wanna give anything away yet...gotta keep all of you in suspense.
CUZ THATS HOW I ROLL!

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If anyone has some ideas, feel free to shoot them at me as well.

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Omaha Night Life has completely let me down. I sent them my schedule and they send me one back for all Sat nights except for one Friday. Why would you send me a schedule for all Sat's if I already told you I work Sat's at my other job? Doesn't make sense....So I told them to give me a call and let me know if there's other things available I can do.
No call. No email. No nothin.
It's been almost a week since then. I'm really bummed out, and really pissed off. I'm gunna have to be the one to call them and see what the fucks goin on.


Have a good day kidos!

p.s. check this out....www.xanga.com/peepelsuck
XANGA
came across this the other day...started reading it, and man....was I lame.
I got a good laugh out of it though.

4th of July

Wooooooo!
This year doesn't feel exciting at all. It just feels like another day. I don't have any plans. I could go to Jessies party but I'd rather just sit around at home and watch fireworks. I'm completely drained. Ballet and Pointe are just killin my whole body. On top of that and working everyday, I just need a break. I won't have another day off until Tues. I didn't plan on working this much. Grrrr

Well....have a good 4th everybody!